Exhausted, but ok
Photo courtesy of Gratisography
Thursday, June 25th, 2026It’s the night of the morning that my blog post was due. I’ve been late often lately. This tracks with how I’m managing the rest of my life right now. Not great. It’s ok. I’m ok. It will all come together in due time.
I had the time tonight to write. I sat down and got sucked into the instagram. It wasn’t ideal. It’s that “week” at work again. The week after the first round of fittings for the new season, where deadlines are looming and the workload is heavy.
I went in yesterday morning to work with my skip-level on a pattern. Another one she wasn’t expecting got slipped into the mix and she got frustrated. Not at me or the developer, but at the complexity of the pattern fix. It made me feel better. She felt this way about one of them.
I have 15 of these that are due by EOD tomorrow.
The last two nights I worked until 11pm. Tonight I had dinner plans with a group of friends. I was the last to show up. The festivities were lagging by the time I arrived. Someone said I looked exhausted. I was - I didn’t particularly want to be there. Time feels precious right now. Still, another two hours before we decided to call it quits and head home.
Afterwards, I had some extra time tonight. There’s a rule at work that if you have an alcoholic beverage, you’re not allowed to get back on your computer.
I had two, just to be sure.
And then I got stuck in the web. My brain was not in it to think and to write a post about something that AI is going to tell me is profound. Then polish it until it’s all nice and shiny, and then it takes me another 3 hours to rough it up a bit.
So now, when I should be going to bed - I’m actually already in bed and ready to sleep as soon as the exhaustion overtakes me - I’ve started this post.
Not a lot is going on. The house hasn’t changed much since the last time I posted. I managed to get dining chairs, though it still feels weird now to sit at the table. Many of the same issues I had last time still need to be addressed, but this time I have garage storage to put together to get things off the ground. I’m excited about that. I also have multiple trash bins worth of cardboard for recycling.
I have gotten a few small things dealt with since the last time I wrote. I ordered kitchen towels and a mat cutter today.
I am now the proud owner of both a can opener as well as a citrus squeezer.
With my big calendar and the old water color prints I bought more than 20 years ago from an artist in New York, I will likely pay for that mat cutter and then some. I really wouldn’t mind doing picture framing again.
I got some fun mixing bowls that I think I will like as well. I’m not sure where I'll put them, but I’ll figure that out on Sunday. Maybe I’ll get rid of the ones I have. The office is really confounding me. I’m excited to be able to take care of some of the things in the garage. On Monday, I can figure out what my brain is ready for next.
All the bits and pieces I’ve gathered since the last post are to fill needs. Nothing feels particularly like progress, mostly just infrastructure. There’s still plenty of progress that needs to happen though. I was working on things over the weekend, and again, I kept repeating,
I’m ok, I’m ok. I’m ok…
Because I am.
Stay Gritty